I hope everyone is having a fantastic Labor Day!
I have to admit... mine is not going so well. I am trying to stay positive, I know that 3 days past my due date is nothing out of the ordinary. Most woman deliver after their due date. I keep telling myself she will come when she's ready... try to take this time to relax and enjoy being off work... blah blah blah. And I am trying, I really am, but the extreme discomfort I have been feeling is making things alot harder for me.
When I roll over in bed, or spread my legs apart to exit the car, I literally feel like my pelvis is splitting in half. I will feel a large popping and then the pain will shoot through my pelvic area like I am being stabbed. Its beyond uncomfortable. Sometimes, especially at night when I am trying to roll from one side to the other, it will even make me cry out in pain.
I am huge! My belly is absolutely ginormous at this point. I had no idea that I could ever be this big. I bump it into everything. I have to sit so far away from the table when I am eating, I end up wearing half of my meal on my boobs or my belly.
I have also felt a decrease in fetal movement. I have called and talked to the doctor and after doing kick counts, have been assured there is nothing to worry about, but considering how much she moved around before, this isn't something I am used to having to think about at all. It makes me nervous and frustrated.
I am tired and exhausted and done with being pregnant. I am trying really hard to keep on that smiley face and stay upbeat and positive, but with each passing day it becomes more and more difficult. It is starting to really weigh on me, not just physically, but emotionally as well.
I am not looking forward to the work week starting back up again for my husband tomorrow. Atleast with the weekend and today being a holiday, he is home with me and is a big help in keeping my mind of things and staying positive. I have a feeling being home all day by myself is going to make things a little harder.
I have been trying some of the old wive's tales and ofcourse nothing has been working. Not that I really thought anything would, but I figure it can't hurt and it gives me something to do. I have been eating spicy stuff, and pineapple and walking, walking, walking. I can't really walk any more now, due to the pelvic pain and pressure I have been feeling, but until that became too bad, I was walking quite a bit. Everyone keeps saying that we need to have sex, but thats just not an option at this point, although we did give it a try.
The one thing that would most likely work, taking Castor oil, is just not something I feel comfortable doing. I may change my mind later, but I guess I'm just not quite desperate enough yet. The idea of possibly spending several hours peeing out of my ass and puking at the same time is enough to deter me for the moment.
She will come when she is good and ready. And this time is fleeting and will soon be a distant memory. I tell myself all of this and I know that it is true. But it doesn't make the way I feel right now any less intense. I am also hormonal and emotional and everything is amplified due to this as well. I am scheduled to be induced on the 14th if nothing happens before then. I would rather not be medically induced, as this makes a natural birth with no epidural so much more difficult due to the increased strength and intensity of the contractions (through everything, an epidural is not something I am completely dismissing, I am just going to really try to go without). I really want things to move along naturally and I am hoping to not have to continue feeling like this for another week.
Here are some pictures Joe took of me today. We are getting ready to go for some sushi with our friends Toni and Dan. Getting some sushi and hanging out with them has put me in better spirits. Maybe some spicy rolls will get things going...
I know many of you have been through this and have felt the same way. So if you would all do me a huge favor and send some prayers/wishes out there into the universe that I go into labor very very very soon... I would really really appreciate it!